mom thoughts

We ask Zabrina on a scale of 1-10 what are you today and her reply is
"10 being best or worst" our answer 10 being best ~
she says she has to clarify the rating scale
today she is a 5.5 heading towards 6 she said
from saturday until tuesday she ate fruit and saltine crackers
she said a belt is a must to hold up her pants:) she doesn't want to lose
them walking from the living room to the kitchen
wed & thurs she has ate real food
her pain has decreased greatly

I had a mini melt down (just a mini one)at Sams club yesterday
on the phone with my son
kinda of funny, when I think about it now because I was not aware of any
other people in the store

I know I need to take care of me so I can be with Bri and I have a hard time
even voicing that because Bri is the one going through chemo
and I somehow still think I can do all the things I love to do

words of wisdom from my son
he said Mom 4 things you are to do every day count them on one hand
1. God
2. take care of me (so I can be there for Bri)
3. be with my husband
4. and one extra thing
and I said I have to add him and Sarah (his wife)
so that is 5
Rob said and with the other hand ~ I am to hold Bri's hand

my husband spent the evening with Bri tonight ~
he said they laughed a lot
for sure he can make her laugh
I love hearing it

Kathleen came and cut her hair Monday
very cute ~ I think she looks like Kate
from Jon & Kate plus 8 ~
but they do not have the 8 and she is married to Jeff not Jon

for all of us if Bri is having a good day
we all are having a good day

thank you to those who are going to decorate our tree
do you know how many ornaments I have?
that is one of the things that I keep thinking I could
do but Rob called tonight and ask if I wanted help
every day this week I thought I could do it but I have not

tomorrow Jeff works
so I will be with bri ~ I did not see her today

I know you all are praying and I need to know that
I find the most strength from the prayers

today the emphasis is on
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil
the evil is from Satan ~ our evil right now is cancer
and our awesome God is victories over evil

wow my thoughts have been all over